Friday, March 29, 2013

Doubting Yourself

I don't know if it's "cool" or not to talk about your insecurities. Probably not. I never said I was cool. Simply AWESOME. Or maybe I'm cool by NOT being cool? Enough rambling. Onward!

So I feel the need to write, but I need a break from my novel, I am. Whining. To you. Whoever you may be. Maybe no one will read this and I'll be whining merely to myself. I do that.

My doubts: Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it, if it's going to go anywhere, if I'm wasting my time. Maybe I'm really not that great of a writer. Maybe people just say I am 'cause, I don't know, they're super nice? Whether I make it big or not, I will continue to write, but that naughty voice inside my head (isn't that my BRAIN?) sometimes tells me I'm NOT going to make it big. It also tells me I'm not Gerald Butler's wife, so I don't know how truthful it really is, since, ya know, I'm his wife and all.

My goal, my dream, is to be a New York Times Bestselling Author. I want to write full-time, make a career out of it. It's what I love to do. It's part of me. Who I am. I MUST WRITE.

So, yeah, I don't know why I"m blathering on about this. It's not like anyone cares. And anyway, regardless of what happens, I'll continue to pour my heart and soul onto the pages of a book and if it means something to ONE person, then I guess I'm doing what I should be doing, even if that one person is me. Even if I'm the only one that reads it. But I won't be, in either instances. So...back to the book.


  1. I read your blog and I think what you do is great. I love your books and you super awesome facebook page..So stop doubting your writing abilities because I want to read The next in the Ordinary series.You can't just leave me hanging ya know!! Keep up the Super Awesome writing we love it..

  2. Like I said on facebook, (That was me I have the same insecurities but you shouldn't you are amazing (trust me, I've read your books, some of them, and almost all your WIP that you post, and I'm not just being "nice"), but I do understand. I think the people that have read my stuff just say it because they feel they have to or some nonsense like that. I also wanted to make writing a full time gig, and where as I can't necessarily be an author full time I decided to go to school to be an English teacher, teaching kids the awesomeness of writing...I might put that in the description of the class now that I think of it... :)

    My husband tells me one thing, it shouldn't be about what other's think of your book, it should be about what you think. If you are happy with your writing, why should other's opinions matter? I then tell him that I would like for it to matter to someone the same way other's books mattered to me. Reading is and has always been an outlet for me. I want it to be like that for someone else too.

  3. Hi Lindy...Rome wasn't built in a day! I am quite selective about certain genre books for reading especially paranormal types. I ventured out of my comfort zone and read Charmed and Charmed Again and I have to say enjoyed both books. You have great writing skills plus I was left wanting more. A fan was born, I followed down the Zart road and read Safe and Sound, Ordinary and Dating Husbands and was again impressed in addition to your other strengths, how vesatile your skills are in writing different genres which I've notice some authors don't implement. I've so enjoyed reading all your books, I felt like they've taking me on vacation even though temporary. I look forward to reading more books from you. Live and write for the moment. No regrets either your big, big "Aha" moment will happen!

  4. Lindy, thanks for a great blog post. And, No, it's not wrong to talk about one's insecurities. I think it makes an author even more likeable, actually. There are so many of us who are yet unpublished and remain so because of our insecurities and doubts (I am one of them). You have had the courage to overcome that fear that seems to grip some of us in a vice lock. You are a successful writer, and you should be proud of yourself of your achievements. Take a deep breath and keep on writing. Love ya!

  5. I pretty much wrote the same thing on my blog. I am 22 years old and I have always wanted to be a writer but I feel as if I'm not good enough. I am terrified of doing it and failing or doing it and finding out I am not good enough and time will pass me away trying to be good. It is somewhat reassuring to know that even the best of us and the people that have actually accomplish much in this field have doubts also. It helps me to know that even though you have doubts it doesn't mean that you aren't good and you Lindy Zart, you are awesome!